Your aim is to achieve a certain goal, fulfil a dream or desire, and this is what motivates your actions, and all you do, yet you never get it. Or, as soon as you do, it immediately disappears from sight and again you are most frustrated and disappointed.
If the above has been going on for many years already, it is very likely that there is a hidden automatic renewal at work. Perhaps at an early stage of this or another life you inadvertently subscribed for services whose payment involves automatic repetition of the pattern you keep experiencing. Giving up the achievement of your current goal and desire was the form of payment you chose at that time.
No matter how you try hard to manifest your goals and dreams, you are bound to let them go, unless you find out how to disactivate your automatic renewal.
If you are not happy about your situation you need to retrieve the memory of your subscriptions and learn how to change them.
All your present and future may simply depend upon checking the dialog box which turns off automatic renewal.