On a New Moon we may experience a glowing sense of melancholy. We can discern the caring company of healing spirits and also the challenge to accept their presence. This is the anxiety of experiencing the luminous side, knowing that it will draw the dark side.
Experiencing darkness is part of the process of bringing light, as long as this does not lead to polarity and conflict with either darkness or light. Once we bring light into the darkness, then there is no darkness anymore.
This reveals a totally new landscape, where fear, terror and other grievances are transmuted into love, joy and ultimately unity. Once the relationship with Spirit moves beyond the nurturing and initiatory level, it inescapably involves the unveiling of the dark side.
Darkness is the other side of Light. This is what we find when the honeymoon is over. Just like the night follows the day, darkness comes after light.
Since on a New Moon the Sun and the Moon are both in conjunction, there is potential to experience idyllic moments of unity. On such occasions we may feel the presence of Light so strongly, yet there may also be so much sadness, despair and fear.
Where does it come from? Why do we feel so miserable? What have we done? What has been done to us?
The answer we may receive is that this is part of the healing work. It implies becoming aware that these gloomy feelings are the dark side of Spirit. This is the part that, once accepted, can lead to the authentic experience of unity. It comes to us whenever we have blissful luminous experiences. It arrives in the form of fear and other grievances. It brings death and rebirth. Yet this death is not opposed to life. It is the denied side of life, the secret lover that in our bravest dreams we crave to reunite with.
If we create an antagonism with the dark side, we can have some temporary relief, yet we miss the lesson of the cycle. The incorporation of the dark side is the foundation of true healing. It is quite a huge leap, for when we confront with the dark side we perceive ourself isolated from the consensus reality based on the denial of the dark side itself.
The consensus reality provides a provisional relief and sense of unity. Yet there is an expiry date. Although it can be denied and postponed, the confrontation with the dark side is inevitable.
From the spiritual perspective, we are in a hallucination based on polarity. Here everything appears confrontational and predatory. This is the obvious result of separation. We perceive ourself as separated and therefore we need to defend our separated bit. We defend ourself from whatever can threat the fragmented identity that we believe to be. We protect ourself from other people, environmental conditions, natural phenomena, weather, etc.
This is a forlorn war, since in the end our fragmented bit will succumb. Holistic healing involves acknowledging, retrieving and incorporating the fragmented parts, which are basically those that our separated self is at war with or terrified of.
During the New Moon there is a temporary crisis in the motivation to fight the polarity war. Since the Sun and Moon are united, the reality based on separation temporarily falls apart. For the fragmented identity it is a most dramatic event and death, whereas from the astroshamanic healing perspective it is the gateway to ecstasy.
On a New Moon the game of separation suffers an inexorable crisis. The two polarities are at one. If we have started the previous cycle with a healing Intent, this is the moment when we gather all the pieces we have retrieved and put them together. The separated parts die and are reborn into a unified part. The perception of such an event changes according to separation or unity. This is what causes such contradictory feelings. It is also a solitary process, death and rebirth. This is a paradox for, although this is happening to everyone, we seem to be the only one who dies.
Please be aware that you are not alone. Death and life blend themselves on a New Moon. The secret is unveiled. Here we face the opportunity to start a new cycle based on healing. Here we can release the temptation to fight another war. Let’s join forces on this New Moon.
Let’s allow our individual grievances to be collective grievances. Let’s give our consent for our dark side to meet all the other dark sides. Let’s allow this collective dark side to meet its luminous counterpart and become one.
Let’s employ whatever we experience on this New Moon as fertiliser for a healing Intent. This will initiate a new cycle of the Moon based on retrieval.
After the New Moon the two polarities will separate again. Yet this departure is aimed at retrieving the fragmented pieces. Consequently, after a whole cycle, on the next New Moon they will incorporate and become one.
This is an invitation for you to join this enterprise. What we invite us to do is to collectively share our experiences of the dark and the luminous side. This is something that could occur at every New Moon, as well as at every Full Moon.
The first stage of healing and retrieval of unity, as we see it, is connecting personal experience/history to collective experience/history.
The second stage is connecting collective experience/history to spiritual experience/history.
One by one, and together, we can decide to take this first crucial step. Let’s come together and unify our solitary release paths on this New Moon!
Let’s be united both in our misery and bliss. Let’s prepare and adorn the wedding chamber for the ecstatic encounter of the two polarities. “I am a part of you, you are a part of me.” Let’s ground this awareness in our hearts and throats.
© Franco Santoro
Image: by Dante Gabriel Rossetti, born on a New Moon in Taurus.