How much madness and infamy the consensual reality needs to cause for you to let go of it?
Being aware of the darkness of this world is useless if it does not push you to seek the light.
Perceiving the darkness of this world serves as a contrast to conceive a luminous world.
The darkness you see in the surrounding reality ceases to rage on you when you recognize it as your creation. All the hideous episodes and characters from the outer world are emanations of your inner world. When you realize this, then you can access the dark matrix. The switch to turn on the light is right there.